Where have I been you ask? Or perhaps you haven’t noticed (don’t tell me, I want to think I was missed) I haven’t been commenting as much on other blogs, or chatting away on mine (I know for a while I’ve been a little silent here so you probably didn’t notice), I haven’t even been able to answer emails in a timely manner. I logged on today and I had over 230+ emails in my inbox. Normally there are about 30…so how many days has it been??
I’ve been much sicker, if that’s the word to use, lately. I’m not really sick, it’s my chronic stuff, plus a little oops added in. First I’ll tell about my oops.
I know in my last post 30 things you may not know….. I mentioned how hard it is for me to wash my hair. It’s normally easier in the bathtub than the shower (I’ve fallen too many times in the shower), but I’ve decided that my bathtub is evil. I’ve had heart palpitations in the tub and nearly passed out, I’ve slipped a few times trying to get out, once I smacked my head against the wall. My latest fight with the tub? I pulled the tendons in my left ankle, and knocked everything out of whack on that side from my foot to my lower back, while I was lying in the tub. Yes, I said, LYING IN THE TUB! Only me right? Ok, it was a little more than just lying still. I had scooted down in the tub to rinse my hair, then I pushed with my feet to scoot up – my left foot slipped and went in a direction it shouldn’t have. But I must say, it really didn’t hurt. When I got out of the tub I could stand fine as long as I didn’t go up on my toes. So I’m thinking, no big deal. Then Stuart looked at my ankle and said, “Oh My!”. My ankle was very swollen!! My lower back hurt, but my ankle really didn’t. If you touched the swollen area it hurt, but not much. This happened last Friday night. On Wednesday the swelling was down and I had a massage, she helped the leg and back, but last night my ankle was swollen again. (not that I’ve been on it, I had vertigo all day yesterday so I was in the bed.) So now you know. I am afraid of my tub and shower….makes it pretty hard to keep up personal hygiene, but I manage….thanks to that darling man of mine.
What else had been causing me frustration and just plan fear lately? I was supposed to have the Botox shots for my migraines on the 18th, my doctor was sick and they had to reschedule….they wanted to make the appointment in November! We are leaving for Tucson, AZ the last week on October, we won’t be here in November. So they scheduled it for October 20th…I cried. I had the worst time with migraines this past month. Right before my period started the pain started…they gave me special medication for that time of the month, it didn’t work. I had 15 days out of 20 were spent in a dark room, often without any hearing device on because the light and sound would make me throw up. Throw in some vertigo, and we have a great party going on. Luckily, the appointment has just been changed to October 3rd. This should be during my period, so it will be a real test. Big problem now? If it works I need to have another shot regimen in 3 months, we won’t be here. I’m not sure I can find a neurologist in Tucson who would be willing to see me just once to give me Botox injections. Actually, I doubt I will be able to, so it will be more like 5 months between injections.
Recently I’ve been having more vertigo, and constant disequilibrium. Frankly, it scares me. I’m pretty sure some of this is Cerebrospinal Fluid Pressure. We changed my medication that controls the high pressure to a times released form instead of the kind I have to take numerous times a day (I kept missing one). Since I’ve been on this new version of this medication I’ve been having symptoms like I did when my pressure was too low. I started back on the regular form of the medication yesterday, I hope this really is what’s wrong. Because the vertigo is scary. I’m proud of myself about how much better I’m dealing with it. I don’t panic as much, I’m sure I would if it was a severe attack. My biggest fear I have is that when a severe attack hits it will never end. I’ll give you an example of my days…Yesterday I woke up to the word spinning, slowly, but still spinning…this went on all day. Luckily, I was able to sleep through some of it. Then when it actually got to be bedtime, I couldn’t sleep. So many things going through my head. I kept thinking, something doesn’t add up….but I’m not sure what…at least I finished Uncle Tom’s Cabin…and still laid awake until 5am. Today, I’m not spinning, but I can’t walk straight. I can’t move my head at a normal speed or I will fall down from the disequilibrium. In the past 48 hours, I’ve been to the bathroom once unaided.
OK…I know this is another venting post. But I’m scared. What if the change in medication doesn’t work? Then why is this happening? We’ll figure it out, or I’ll learn to live with it! Right?
The other night I was talking to Stuart and told him that sometimes I envy people who don’t have to feel like I do. Of course, he said that’s natural, part of self-preservation and all that…. I then told him, I would gladly be the only person in the world who had to feel this way if no one else ever did. And I mean it. The thought that others go through this is heart breaking to me.
I do have some good news about my hearing! (unfortunately I had to cancel the last 3 appointments I’ve had with my audiologist because I was too ill to go, so I can’t tell you what she has to say, but I have some Wow! news.) Stuart got The Lorax DVD from Netflix and we curled up in bed and watched it on the computer. I used the direct link cable and linked the computer sound up to my processor. I didn’t expect to hear any better than I hear the TV, I thought I’d mostly read the movie, as usual (thank goodness for closed captioning!), but this was different! I heard the movie!! I heard the characters the way they were supposed to sound! I really heard it all, just right! Isn’t that amazing? That gives me hope that one day my CI will give me sounds that are normal. Right now, I hear better with it than my hearing aid, but sounds are a bit off, however, I understand things more. It’s coming along! And The Lorax is my new best friend!
Tuesday, July 31st, I woke up to this beautiful site:
I had an appointment with Dr. Kaylie to check my incision at 1pm, and then I saw the audiologist immediately afterward.
Dr. Kaylie was pleased that I didn’t have as much pain or vertigo with this surgery. The incision looked great, and all was a go for activation….well, to get my processor. Dr. Kaylie already checked to make sure the Implant was working when I was in surgery, so that wasn’t a worry. The implant was already working, but I couldn’t hear anything without the processor. It was time to get the processor. So off to see Sara, my audiologist.
It was very interesting to have the processor hooked up. At first I just heard a series of beeps, (that’s what I was supposed to hear). She was determining the volume each frequency should be. Then I was able to hear speech, and when I first heard her talk I busted out laughing! She sounded like a cartoon, then I heard Stuart speak, and he sounded like a cartoon…heck, I sounded like a cartoon. I kept giggling every time someone spoke. Everyone still sounds cartoonish. A very silly cartoon, like on Rodger Rabbit. It’s amusing but also quite difficult. Sara reassured me that all of her patients tell her that it gets better, but everyone is different. My brain has to be trained to hear a different way. Now I’m not hearing as a normal person, I’m hearing by having my auditory nerve stimulated. That kind of blows my mind. (I know my hearing will get better and better as time goes on, but I also know I may never hear like normal ears hear any longer.)
You would not believe how much stuff I got with my processors. Two HUGE boxes full of stuff.
I was joking in the last picture, I was shown what everything did, I just need to work with everything to make sure I understand how it works without anyone telling me, or me having to look it up. Especially all the connections to hook the processor straight up to the iPod, or things like that. The different ear hooks for different things with the Harmony. All the accessories just to make it different looking and some to clip the Neptune on to me, like an arm band and a lanyard…ect.
I have a drying box to keep the processors free of dampness. Each processor came with one, but I like one better than the other. There are different carrying cases, but neither will help organize all the pieces. I feel like I got some very useful items, some fun items, and some useless items. But it’s been like Christmas for a couple of days just playing around with all the pieces and figuring out how to wear them.
Here’s some photos of me with my CI hooked up with the different processors :
So there you have it. Me and my Cochlear Implant with the 2 processors I picked out.
Remember, picking out a processor is a very personal thing. I would never say mine is the best, if you are getting a cochlear implant, do as I did, read up as much as you can on all the ones available, then decide which one will fit in you the best.
Also. Everyone has different experiences with their CI. I’m hearing words, some people do not hear words when it is first turned on. Others hear words that are much clearer than what I am hearing. Some of it depends on how long you have been deaf, I don’t know the other factors…I just know we are different. So don’t think my experience is the same experience you will have.
The wonders continue!
OH….I did hear my cat purr last night, and it sounded like purring! I was thrilled! The one sound I’ve had a hard time getting used to is my own breath. I feel that’s strange….hopefully I’ll get used to it soon. Breathing shouldn’t be this loud….should it? I’m sure it’s something that will end up just going into the background. I remember when I got my hearing aids the sound of my hair brushing against them drove me crazy….later I didn’t even notice it.
Today’s Prompt: The Things We Forget. Visit http://thingsweforget.blogspot.com/ and make your own version of a short memo reminder. Where would you post it?
Instead of creating a reminder on list on-line, I posted notes through-out my house. Things we need to remember.
With Meniere’s I have fluctuation hearing loss, with eventual permanent hearing loss.
If you are a regular reader you know my situation, if not I’ll fill you in.
Right now, my left ear has 0% word recognition and cannot be helped with a hearing aid, my right aid has about 80% word recognition with the help of a hearing aid. However, the hearing fluctuates. My hearing fluctuates more with weather changes, and when I have a Meniere’s attack. (to learn more about Meniere’s please see the page above).
One day a few weeks ago I woke up and could barely hear. Every sound sounded like it was coming through a busted speaker. The same went on for 3 days. I admit this had me concerned. When I lost the hearing in my left ear, the majority was lost in just 3 short months. The loss started in this fashion. Sounding like a busted speaker, having a tinny sound. Normally, in my right ear when the hearing fluctuated, it simply dropped, then would return, sometimes not quite all the way, but when it dropped, it was just a bit softer, not this tinny sound. So I was nervous. And I realize, this could still be a sign of potential nerve damage.
However, in about 3 or 4 days, I had a vertigo attack. Classic sign of a Meniere’s attack. Fluctuating hearing, then a vertigo attack, ending in complete exhaustion. When I woke the next day. I could hear again! I was so thrilled. I had a horrible headache, but I could hear. Who knows how long this hearing may last. I decided to do something I rarely do, I took much medication to get my headache under control, and went outside hoping to hear some birds. Sadly I didn’t hear any birds. I was not the right time of the day. But being outside was so nice. I decided to sit on the back porch and enjoy the beautiful spring late afternoon. Soon I was joined by a friend.
A huge bumble bee decided I would make a good friend. I was out on the back porch for at leash half an hour possibly more, this lovely bumble bee kept me company the entire time. He would come closer, then go a little bit away. He faced me, then raced away and buzzed right back. I talked to him and told him how beautiful he was and how I was out there hoping to hear things I may not hear much longer. As if he could hear me, he came up right beside my head, I could not only HEAR this beautiful Bumble Bee BUZZ, I felt it!! He then came around in front of me and looked at me. I know, this was just by chance, and perhaps because I had on a bright orange shirt. However, no matter how long I live, and no matter if I lose all of my hearing, I will never forget the day I heard a bee buzz.
Let’s talk a little about hearing.
What? Okay, let’s not actually “talk”, let’s type a bit shall we. Ah, that’s better, I can understand this much better.
Recently I saw the Audiologist and had my hearing aid adjusted. By recently, I mean 2 -3 weeks ago. I was amazed. I was hearing things I didn’t know I’d been missing. For days I kept asking Stuart, “What’s that noise?” I do believe I was driving him crazy. He kept having to think, what noise? then he’d realize, oh, she heard the truck outside, or the plane over head…I hadn’t been hearing these things.
Then my hearing started to drop. Just like my left ear did this past summer. It started sounding like a busted speaker. Things didn’t just get quieter like it originally did when I lost the majority of the hearing in my right ear. In my right ear, after each Meniere’s attack I simply didn’t get all my hearing back, things got duller, softer. This is different. Things sound tinny. Broken. Today it’s a bit better, but it’s still there. For some reason, my left ear’s nerve was damaged. Dr. Kaylie said it’s not that uncommon with Meniere’s patients. He said the way I was losing my hearing in my right is more right is more common, but it’s not completely uncommon for it to happen like the left. My worry is, the left ear’s hearing dropped so suddenly. It fluctuated a bit for 3 months, then it didn’t come back.
I just tried to watch something on Netflix. I didn’t realize it didn’t have subtitles, but since I had my hearing aid adjusted if I listened with my iCom (it puts the sound right in my hearing aid) I’ve been able to watch some things without subtitles. This show started, I could not hear anything. I checked the volume on my computer, it was all the way up on the computer and on the site. I could only hear tiny little squeaks. I would not have thought it was anything if I wasn’t trying to hear something.
It bother’s me so much that Netflix has so very many movies and shows that are not subtitled!!! It’s ridiculous. They have a list of some they do have (it is not inclusive) and there is no way to sort it by genre or anything worth while. You can sort it by title, year, rating, and how many stars it got. Big deal. I’m looking for a Sci Fi movie…help me out here. Geez. We usually have to order discs because more discs have subtitles. Ummmm, if the discs have subtitles why aren’t they available on streaming? Really. Do you realize the market you are missing?? OK. Off Soap Box.
My worry about the hearing loss.
I know I will need a cochlear implant. I really don’t want to be completely deaf this late in life. But will they go ahead and do it with everything else going on? Or will they need to get this all settled first? What if I completely lose my hearing in just a few short months? Or less? (I know I’m looking on the dark side, I’m just looking at the worst case scenario, and remember I went through this last year. And right now I can barely hear!) So, tomorrow we are going to call the audiologist and make an appointment for a hearing test. So I can be armed when I talk to Dr. Kaylie. So I can ask him, if I need a cochlear implant soon, will we need to wait until the intracranial hypertension is under control first? Heck, couldn’t another hole in my head be a good thing? cause a little leak in there doc, just a slow leak…yeah….then I won’t need the shunt. hahaha
Does anyone out there run a fever at night? Or know why you might? I had all the test run recently…autoimmune, inflammatory…ect. all perfect. Even my fatty liver is not fatty. It has fat on it, but the liver itself is not fatty. Great news. No autoimmune markers….so yes, I am allergic to wheat, and intolerant to gluten, but I do not have Celiac. *sticking my tongue out at a certain doctor* Why am I swollen every morning? I had that answered by one of you lovely friends. Bed bound people retain a lot of water. So I’m trying hard to move more, but not move so much that my pressure gets all raised and I get a spiked headache. I’ve also cut way back on the salt.
Anyone else out there have hearing troubles? I know you are out there….do you think you will ever have to get a cochlear implant?
Today was a breath-taking beautiful day. The sun was shining, it was in the 80′s F….yes the 80′s on the first day of March! A good friend of mine just got married! I’m so very thrilled for her, you may remember me passing along the candle lighter award to her….Congratulations Fiona and Jeremy…I adore you!
I slept longer than I have in a long time, I woke up with a minimal headache (my normal every day type of headache). I was still seeing double but it didn’t seem to last as long. I lounged in bed for a while with the window open and enjoyed my breakfast. Then I read a bit on the computer and decided to get dressed for the day. We were refinancing out house to a better rate, and we had to sign all the papers at the lawyer’s today, so I had places to go. I decided to start getting ready very early. About 2 1/2 hours early. Just in case. I wanted to do a little then rest, do a little more, rest…eat lunch….rest….you get the idea.
You would be so proud of me…I know I was. Darn I should have gotten a picture!! I French braided my hair. I’ve never been able to do that! It has always turned out lopsided or with straggling hairs, but usually it is a “Dutch” braid. A French braid lies flat against your head the Dutch braid is kind of backward, it looks like a braid stuck to your head….it sticks out. It’s kind of neat, but not what I wanted. And…imagine this, I did it on the FIRST try!!
I tried on a few things to wear, but the one’s that I don’t look like a blimp in were too hot, I admit I was getting sad and upset. Then I thought of a white tank top with an orange cap sleeved sweater over it that has one button around the abdomen that makes me look much thinner. I actually put on makeup!! I got ready, got dressed, and got down stairs….all by myself. I was beaming with pride.
Stuart and I decided if I felt well enough after our visit to the lawyer we would have a date night and go to Fishmonger’s. I LOVE crab legs. I know he just got them for me on Valentine’s day…but it was so nice to have a date night with my hubby. In a restaurant right across the street from where we met.
Fishmonger’s is one of those little seafood restaurants that make you feel like you are on the Carolina Coast.
I am having a very hard time with my hearing. Stuart needs to step up his ASL practice. On average I have to ask someone to repeat themselves at least 3 times, and after that I just drop it. It’s too embarrassing. And it’s usually just some small talk. I can’t remember if I’ve mentioned it here, and I’m too tired to look back and finish this so I’ll give you the short version. Saw Audiologist on Monday. She thinks I’ll need a cochlear implant soon but the requirements change with insurance companies. We have new insurance starting this months. (they are going to love this) The first question Stuart is going to call and ask is what
their criteria is for covering a cochlear implant? The surgery cost between $30,000 and $100,000 and our out-of-pocket will be $150 Yay!!!
So I may have told you…forgive me.
So while we were out, it came time for my medication. All of a sudden I had a sharp pain in my head, I asked what time it was, exactly time for my medication! I asked if we happened to remember….ooops, nope. So I was 2 hours late taking it. By the time I got home, I was not able to walk unaided, I was slurring my words, I had to really concentrate to understand things…..it’s kind of funny, in a way I feel like I’ve taken some drug…like a downer or something. But it’s all being caused because I missed my medication. Ahhhh!
Right now I’m running a fever again. Every night, only at night. Strange huh? I take some Tylenol it goes away.
I still have a lot fo figure out with all of this, and it will take some time. It is apparent that I’m getting better with the side effects and I’ll probably get even better when I get some potassium (Diamox is known to deplete potassium.) I have been trying to eat a banana a day, but it’s hard when that’s the cap on the amount of fruit I can eat in one day. So we went to buy some and the store was out. How rude!
I’ve been watching these cooking shows and now I’m just dying to cook. But I need to be more steady on my feet for that. Perhaps I see some slow cooker meals in the future. (much less dangerous, I can just instruct Stuart.) I bought some herbs recently, and got a free ounce of Saffron….oh….what will I do with this delectable spice?
Also, if you have never heard of or tried Pot Herb – it is a mixture of Chives, Chervil, Parsley, Thyme, Marjoram, and Bay leaves. This was delectable in Chicken Soup..and just on chicken….I can imagine so many things to do with this blend…why have I never heard of this french blend of spices before?
What a difference a day can make. Do I feel this much better from all the well wishes? The joyous feelings I have for my friend? The fact that the Topamax was uped? The beautiful weather (you know I got to take the top off!!), or have I once again, simply decided enough. I can’t stand to live with you like that! Get up! Pick yourself up…even if you need help, and find something that satisfies you. even something small…and build it up again.
That’s why I say those silly expectations I had for this life…they must be fluid now, and change as I do.
Thank you all for believing in me.
I thought some of you might be interested to see the results of my past two hearing tests.
There’s a lot of information there. The biggest thing that makes it hard, is the word recognition. They simply can’t fix that with the hearing aids. So, according to the latest test, I’m recognizing about 84% of the words I’m hearing in my right ear…and that’s if they are at the right frequency. I’m not deaf! Some things are difficult, but hopefully this is temporary, and if not…I’ll learn.
We still have much hope that things will change. My doctors believe the hearing in my left ear will get better. We’ll just wait and see.
I know many of you are concerned for me right now. I’m doing OK. Really. It’ll take time to process everything Yes, my life’s plan will need to change. I’m trying to look at things differently, not looking back and thinking of what I’ll miss, but look forward at what I can accomplish.
Last night I was writing and drawing and thought I’d share something I wrote:
What started me on this journey?
The need to write and draw is now overwhelming to me.
How did I ever give this up? How did I lose so much of ME?
Yes, You – That girl you look at in the mirror every day —
p/s Please don’t leave again. I’ve missed you.
Thank you all for so much for all the support. Yes, I’m going through a rough spot…but with the support I get from you…my dear friends…it’s easier.
I never dreamed I’d feel such an out pouring of support from people I’ve never met in real life. Many of you have reached out to me when I’ve needed it most. I only hope in some small way, I can give to you as you have given to me. thank you.
After all the warnings from previous procedures that my pressure could spike afterward…and it didn’t…well, I thought it just wasn’t going to happen to me.
My pressure spiked, and my head has been killing me. I’m taking Diamox to lower my pressure, and that scared the bejebez out of me. (No, I have no idea how to spell Bejebez but if you use phonics, it sounds right…doesn’t it?) Any way, I’m petrified that I’ll get my pressure too low, and start spinning and all of that mess.
I’m having the weirdest tinnitus in my left ear. Sounds like a rail road train, (sometimes), other times, it sounds like a very loud squeaky swing….and just all kids of things…but that’s not the weird part. It changes if I put my hand near my ear. If I touch around my ear, it gets louder! And if I hic-up (which I seem to do very often), it has a very loud DING-DONG. Driving me insane.
Think I may have taken too much Diamox yesterday (Dr. Gray was pretty vague on how much to take, take it until the headache stops. Up to 1500mg at one time…notice not in one day…but at one time.) Feeling kind of lost there, but since I couldn’t actually talk to her, well, Stuart doesn’t think to ask some things. But yesterday, the world was spinning, I was amazed I wasn’t throwing up. The world was really moving!!
I’ve spent the last 6 days in bed. Well,, I tried to get up to the couch a couple of times…so I was probably up for about 3 hours total.
I feel so helpless. Stuart usually has to help me get to the bathroom…even pull my pants down…how humiliating! And then the most humiliating thing…and I really thought I was better about this…is when he has to give me a suppository. I just feel so …. dependent…helpless…and just icky. When your husband sees you naked, it shouldn’t be to put medication up your butt! Or help you go to the bathroom! Yuck.
I feel like I have some terminal illness, and I’m just waiting to die. It reminds me so much about taking care of my mother when she was so sick. I know she never planned for her daughter to have to do private things for her.
And to top it all off, my hearing aid BROKE! For the second time!
You may remember this picture below when I was showing off my new hearing aids:
For the second time now, I was cleaning my hearing aid, just rubbing it gently with a tissue, and the little part that holds it in your hear, has snapped off. I’d only had the second hearing aid for about a week. I’m so ticked! I’m asking them to make me a new one out of the same stuff the right one is made from. It is a much sturdier material. The clear plastic, just cracks, like old dried up plastic does. It’s so strange. I’m getting a hearing test on Sept. 6th, and they will order the new hearing aid then. (I think they have to make a new mold for this type of insert.)
I think that’s all for today.
I did want to mention, If you liked seeing and hearing about how my art has been helping me through all of this, I started a new blog that just talks about that. It’s called Create To Heal . Come see me, let me know what you think. Join me in my journey. Create Art. Have Fun. Feel Better!
I’ve always said that we must be our own best advocates.
We need to find out as much as we can out our illnesses, and make sure the doctors we choose are up to date, and caring. For me, I like doctors who will think outside the box. Who try empirical evidence, instead of thinking the normal is normal for everyone.
It’s also very important to make sure your doctors understand what is going on with you. That has been a hard thing for me lately.
I didn’t want to admit that I’m not doing well. I have been so happy with the results of the CSF patches, that I didn’t want to think that I might be taking a step backwards. I’ve been keeping my doctor advised of my situation, but I have been downplaying it. Stuart says I haven’t even been honest with myself. I haven’t admitted that Meniere’s has been ruling my life again. No, I haven’t been having full-blown attacks, but I’ve been feeling so bad that I spend most of my time lying down or sleeping. I got the Wii Game Just Dance this week. It’s so much fun, but every time I try to do it, I end up having mini spins and spending hours just wanting the world to be still.
So today I sent Dr. Kaylie an email, and told him just how much this has been affecting my life.
I realized that I have not been taking my own advice. I have not been a good advocate for myself! That is going to stop.
If I don’t hear from Dr. Kaylie by tomorrow I will have Stuart call his office. (Yes, Stuart. Another way this is affecting me? I can’t really hear on the phone very well.) I’ve also decided I don’t feel comfortable driving. Feeling a bit drunk all the time, is not the way you should feel when you are driving.
I feel much more empowered now. Just speaking up, and telling my doctor that I’m disturbed by what is going on, made me feel like I was doing something productive.
**update** Dr. Kaylie emailed me back, and a copy was sent to Dr. Gray (Linda). He said, “It might be a good idea to get another myelogram. What do you think Linda?”
I’ll keep you posted on the outcome.
First, I’d like to thank all of my friends for checking on us after the storms hit North Carolina. We were very fortunate, all we had at our house was a lot of rain. The tornadoes came through the next town over. Raleigh was hit pretty hard, but Durham wasn’t hurt. It means a lot to me that so many people cared enough to check to make sure we were alright.
This week I’m working for my husband’s company. His boss and wife are on vacation, and they needed someone to answer the phones and asked if I would be interested. I was thrilled that I could say yes. Just think a short time ago I couldn’t commit to anything like this. Also, I couldn’t hear well enough to talk on the phone. Thanks to my new iCom link for my hearing aids I can hear the phone right in my hearing aids, it’s great. It’s like having a blue tooth in both ears at the same time.
This little box connects my hearing aids to my phone, TV, iPod, and/or computer. If I’m watching TV and the phone rings it will shut the volume for the TV off so I can answer the phone. How cool is that? I just love this little box.
I’m still so amazed at how much my life has changed.
However, last night I had something unsettling happen. I was putting my hair up in a pony tail, I turned from the mirror and the world did a little dip. Just for a second, and it didn’t come back. But before I would have thought that was the beginning of a vertigo attack. My stomach did a flip-flop, but that was all. Hopefully, it’s nothing, but when you’ve had my past experiences you know it could mean something.